The sun still rises

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It's been a long,cold winter.

At last I take a real look outside and see that the sun has come up again, just as it did on the morning of the 21st December

the morning of the shortest day of the year

the morning of the lunar eclipse

the morning when my father passed away and was at peace at last.

Now parentless, I feel exposed and vulnerable like never before.
Yet even more sure that I carry on and really live this life.

...still craving my parents approval...

...and the sun will rise again tomorrow.

Comments

A Daft Scots Lass said…
A new day never fails to begin no matter WHAT happens...
4 March 2011 at 11:31
mapstew said…
And live it you will.

Love to you and your wonderful family, who, although having not yet met, have found a place in my heart. :¬)

xxx
8 March 2011 at 01:30
Eryl said…
There's so much in this post, Maggie, I will ponder it for a long while. I guess this is the last of life's epochs: you are the grown up now, the training period has ended. I know how you feel, my mother died in 2006 (my father having stormed ahead by doing it in 1975), so I've been on the front-line for a few years and it still feels odd. But yes, the sun keeps doing what it does.
9 March 2011 at 18:24
Melissa said…
Thanks,
Maggie
21 March 2011 at 20:35
Jill Dian said…
Yes the sun will still shine

You inherited your parents love for life

You will always be with them in thought and spirit

They walk along side you every day

Vulnerable times - be strong Maggie

Jill x
12 April 2011 at 09:41
...tiktakro... said…
You'll always receive their approval in a different way. By dreams, by a simple wind through your hair ....you'll know it.
Be strong and look for happiness in your work.
Hugs from far away...
Teodora.
28 April 2011 at 20:17
Mary said…
I am very sorry to hear about your father's death. My mother died on Dec. 22, 1966 and even though it was years and years ago, you are never the same after you lose a parent! The holidays can be very hard. In many ways, they will always be with you!
28 April 2011 at 21:10
GYPSYWOMAN said…
we always continue seeking parental approval - i believe - at least, many do - but nevertheless - you are so so right, dear lady - the sun DOES always rise - again!
7 May 2011 at 00:31
Rowan said…
Dear Maggie,
I fell absolutely in love with your work the year before last when i discovered embroidery and textile art.
I hope you are feeling ok, regaining equilibrium and that soon we can see more of your beautiful and inspiring work.
Much love,
Rowan.
14 September 2011 at 01:23
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28 October 2011 at 17:52
Anonymous said…
No matter the age, being orphaned is a difficult transition. The cycle of time and life continues.

All I really know is that another day's gone by...
28 October 2011 at 17:55
Anonymous said…
the words "acceptable flesh" grabbed me, came to see what was happening in your world...in mine loss of parents (1992, 2000)loss of husband (2009), an orphan and a widow! yes the sun does indeed still rise!
9 December 2011 at 20:59
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